Messages August 2000

Date: Thu Aug 31 11:30
Jeff (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    To all, Josh has made his spiritual presence known to me in three instances in the last week. I was missing him greatly and driving in my car, when I saw a Jazz mix tape hemade me for my birthday sitting on the floor. I popped it in and on came Louis Armstrong's "I'll Be Glad When You're Dead You Rascal You." I laughed untill I cried...ofcourse that song was followed by Bill Henderson singing, "Got An Awful Lot of Living To Do." I looked to the sky and shouted, in a Scottish brogue(sp?), "I hear ya, you crazybastard!" The next night I was sitting in a bar with Chad talking about Josh when a song started on the juke box that had a very "Joshy" beat. It was "Brick House" which hecovered. We told the bartender how it was a bit freaky that that PARTICULAR song came on because it represented part of our connection with an "old friend", (we neverspoke Josh's name). She listened and excused herself to greet a familiar customer. As she walked off she turned to the old friend and said, "Hey, Joshua!"...Weird, eh? Thenlast night Chad and I were having dinner, (I know, Chad and I spend A LOT of time together, but we are still looking for 'ladyfriends' to have dinner with),so, the two ladiesnext to us strike up a conversation and tell us that in the morning, they are going to JOSHUA Tree and 29 Palms, one of Joshy's favorite places. He is still hanging out with usin very interesting ways. JOSH, that you're gone is LAME, but thanks for saying "hi" every now and then....I love you, Jeffy

Date: Tue Aug 29 20:45
april (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Josh, I accidentally logged into an old email address tonight, and out jumped a saved message you sent to me on 8-7-99. Your subject said Yo-Yo-Yo...and I could HEAR yousay those words. The message was about your move back to Topanga and how you were "lost in an ocean of trying to finish your CD for once and for all". It was "commingout great on your home studio" , and "of course insane Josh wanted to re-do the whole CD at home". You said you were playing at Largo the following night ,and how you"WISHED I was there". I had been in NY for about 8 months then, and was desperately in need of my Josh/Largo fix. You were happily back in Topanga, right across thestreet from your old place. You said how beautiful it was, but you had to work at not becoming a hermit. You said you could really use "a good April and an April party fix". Iremember reading the email and replying that I would see you back in LA end of August at an "April Party". I was so excited to see your smile, rub your curly head, and hugyou harder than ever. I happily got to do that, but it would be the last time I touched you. I so wish I had been able to get back to LA when you were sick. I guess I wasoptimistic, and did not dare to think you could leave. From the first time we met (at the Derby of all places!) to our sleep overs, (Jeff remembers the first one), to holidayswith my family, "Celebrity" matches, the 3 months we lived together, jam sessions, my move to NY, to that last party, time FLEW! I guess I lost sight of "the next time, thenext fix." And even still expect to see you next trip back West. You brought me snow for Christmas, music for my birthday, and smiles all year round. I love you so and missyou even more. I still wake up to "Deer in the headlights" and see you writing it in the next room... Big Kiss dear friend. You will forever be the guest of honor at all "Aprilparties". A Miss you, love you, Love and Hugs Josh

Date: Sun Aug 27 12:09
Henry Felt (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Josh, I forgot; VIOLETS FOREVER!

Date: Sun Aug 27 12:08
Henry Felt (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Dear Josh, Henry here. I haven't written yet for any particular reason, but this afternoon the urge has overtaken me so it must be time. You only spoke to Sally once, but sheand I went to Winnebago with her two girls. Many people wanted me to know how sad they were-how they missed you, how they remembered your singing at thecampfire, how you finally beat me at gunnelling, how much you influenced them or their children's lives, how much they miss your spirit-and of course, when is the CDcoming out. I met with Phil, Lynn and Carol True Giles and we talked about a totem pole to be placed at Winnebago next year-a place for you to rest in our midst and keepan eye on us- We sure do miss you and if you come by, bunk 23 is now called bunk 26 because they added three more cabins. Don't get lost.

Date: Fri Aug 25 12:46
mandy (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    One other thing...the "Magic Eye" sticker was on my car since 1996...I sold it in May of this year. Maybe I was kind of involved. My heart goes out to the friends and family ofJosh. Love, Mandy

Date: Fri Aug 25 12:43
Mandy (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I saw Josh perform with Tori Amos in 1996...he was fantastic. Such a wonderful performer, my friend and I loved him on the spot. I was shocked and saddened to look uphis website today and find out that he was no longer with us. I have always liked Josh's music, and although I haven't been a very involved fan, I thought about him oftenand am very sorry to hear about this.

Date: Fri Aug 25 12:46
mandy (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    One other thing...the "Magic Eye" sticker was on my car since 1996...I sold it in May of this year. Maybe I was kind of involved. My heart goes out to the friends and family ofJosh. Love, Mandy

Date: Fri Aug 25 12:43
Mandy (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I saw Josh perform with Tori Amos in 1996...he was fantastic. Such a wonderful performer, my friend and I loved him on the spot. I was shocked and saddened to look uphis website today and find out that he was no longer with us. I have always liked Josh's music, and although I haven't been a very involved fan, I thought about him oftenand am very sorry to hear about this.

Date: Fri Aug 25 06:29
Nadine from London, England (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I'm devestated to hear of the passing of Josh Clayton-Felt. Back in 1992 School of Fish did a tour of England and myself and 2 friends were lucky enough to see them play livein London. In fact we thought they were so good we saw them twice! We were absolutely nuts about the band. I can honestly say that School of Fish and in particular thevoice and songs of Josh really were a leading inspiration for the passion I now have for music. After the show we briefly met the band (Josh bought me a guiness!) and wewere blown over by how kind and down to earth he was. My heart goes out to Josh's family and close friends. I will never ever forget Josh Clayton Felt and his music. I thinkI'm going to put on one of his CD's right now...

Date: Thu Aug 24 16:10
Hlee Lee (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Hi. I just wanted to know about the "album" is it a tribute (such as other bands/artists playing in tribute to him) or an album consisting of his stuff (him doing it)? I will besure to order one. thanks! love and peace Josh! -HL

Date: Wed Aug 23 02:51
John Fahres (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Greetings. I'm a singer/songwriter from Baltimore, MD, and a former college radio programmer/music director. I'm sorry to be so far behind on the news of Josh's passing.I hadn't even been aware that he was ill! I was fortunate enough to see School of Fish perform twice in Baltimore at Max's on Broadway, then to see him with his soloproject at the Stone Balloon in Newark, DE, opening for Del Amitri. I was very glad to have met him that night and to be able to hang out backstage with him. He was such anupbeat guy! I'm also glad that, in my capacity as a radio programmer, I was able to play music from both the band and his first solo CD across the airwaves for others tohear. Having just lost a friend/local musician to a car accident two weeks ago, this news just reinforces my resolve to make every minute count. So, in tribute to Josh, (andCraig Carr, the local musician who died) and to all other musicians who have contributed so much to the music world, well... I'll keep on playing and writing, and I'll think ofthem while I do. Keep on keepin' on, everybody. John B. Fahres

Date: Mon Aug 21 18:21
Marilyn Felt (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Josh's Mom here. There have been so many requests about when "Spirit Touches Ground" is coming out, that I want to answer and say-- "Soon!" within the next half-yearsurely. The legal entanglements have been untangled and now it's a question of finding the right label. When the album does come out, we want to give it a big, beautiful,Josh-like introduction. Keep letting us know you're interested, because that helps to keep our spirits up. In the meantime, in the coming month, to start building awarenessof Josh's name and interest in the new album, we're going to re-produce the "Magic Eye" sticker that was created for "Inarticulate Nature Boy"-- remember it? And we'regoing to send it to anyone who sends us postage. So start checking the site for that announcement around the end of September. Love to all of you, Marilyn

Date: Sun Aug 20 20:27
eric reed (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    hello! I just thot about something. does anyone remember that beautiful fender jaguar that josh played? you know, the electric guitar with all the glow in the dark stars on it!I was wondering if anyone knows where that guitar is now. I have always wanted a jaguar, and I thot it was really cool too see josh playing one as well the 1st time I sawhim live (back in 96). I'm just curious who has it and what's been done with it. thanks!

Date: Wed Aug 16 06:57
Elsa (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Hi sweets, I miss you soooo much, ( it hurts ) I thought about you -- while viewing the full orange moon last nite on Lake Michigan. I was trying to picture the beauty ofheaven and realize that I couldn't even imagine how beautiful it must be. I love you Josh! Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. When I listen to you, it is unlike noother feeling, I just can't explain how my soul lights up. I will always LOVE you, Josh.

Date: Sun Aug 13 22:51
Kevin Book (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I was driving down the highway in LA in January when "3 Strange Days" came on the radio. It's my favorite song in the world and I turned it up as loud as the speakers in myrental car would go. When it finished with that final chord, rich with signal processing and finality, the deejay came on and said that JCF had died. I had to pull the car over.Throughout the 1990s, I had only one name on the list for my "fantasy" band that didn't change: JCF on guitar and vocals. I have listened over and over again to his records,the best-composed, most thoughtful songs I have heard in my life, and I am still as motivated and inspired by his words and his composition as I was in 1991 when I firstheard the guitar stutter at the beginning of "3 Strange Days." It made the fur rise then. I hope all of you will regale in the richness of his work forever. It deservesimmortality. It's the best stuff I've ever heard.

Date: Wed Aug 9 19:02
renee (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    hi shwa miss you nay

Date: Wed Aug 9 12:03
jeff (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Just wanted to say "hi" buddy. I miss you a ton. Jeff

Date: Sun Aug 6 14:43
Greg Riordan (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I haven't been keeping up on the music world for about a year now. I recently found my "Inarticulate Nature Boy" CD and was learning "Window" and "Blgger Than Me" forsome acoustic shows I'm preparing for. I thought I'd send Josh an e-mail and introduce myself. I was a singer/songwriter in a band Once Hush for six years and just starteda solo project after surrendering to addiction. I got on the web site and found out about his passing. I was dismayed. Although I did not know him personally, I feel a senseof loss. I was able to connect with Josh as an artist. He was innovative, talented, and unique. A true diamond in the 90'S rough. I will always admire his perception and hissuperb ability to express through his craft. My heartfelt condolences to his family and friends. I'm saddened by his passing and am unfortunate in the fact that I never hadthe pleasure of speaking to him on the earthly medium. Write it out in the stars Josh. Write it out in the stars Be Well, Greg Riordan

Date: Sun Aug 6 10:28
eden (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Hello out there...I have been listening nonstop to the live album lately, and wondered if anyone might have videotaped any of his live performances? I was never luckyenough to see him perform after the School of Fish days and would gladly pay to have it copied. Please email me at This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it. if you can help....thanks

Date: Tue Aug 1 23:15
Bob Weide (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Had a dream about Joshie-boy last night. I'm sure I've had other dreams about him in the past few months, but this one was especially resonant. I had invited him to staywith me and was so looking forward to the visit. We kept trying to make arrangements to see each other, but things kept screwing up. (Our schedules conflicted, one of uswould show up at the wrong place, etc.) Finally, he was at my upstairs apartment (a place I lived in many years ago) and there were still more obstacles for me to get insidethe apartment. Eventually I did, and the place was milling with people. (I might have been throwing a party for him.) Finally, there he was. He looked great. Healthy,youthful... the way I always picture him. We just looked at each other and broke into big smiles, then laughter. We embraced for a long time in silence. I was unsuccessfullyfighting back tears. On his back, under his T-shirt, I felt some sort of tube, so his recovery wasn't yet 100%, but he was out and about, getting physical therapy and on hisway to total recovery. It was beautiful just seeing him again, looking so fit and happy. (It reminded me of a reunion we had in 1992 or so, having not seen each other for acouple of years. It was so great to be back in touch and pick up where we had left off.) Back to the dream: He apologized for taking so long to get back in touch butunderstandably he had been through a lot since I last saw him in the hospital and was working his way back to all his friends. At some point it occurred to me that this mightbe a dream and I fought off waking up. I wanted to milk every moment with him before we had to part. I put my hand into that mop of curly hair and just rubbed his headuntil I finally woke up. I felt very melancholy (as I do now, recalling this) but still happy and grateful to get that time with him. All day today I've been thinking about howmuch I miss him. When my time comes to make "the big trip" I only hope his smiling face is there greet me and say, "Welcome. It's so good to see you. Take my hand and I'llgive you a tour of this groovy place." Maybe he'll finally tell me what 11-11 means.