Messages May 2000

Date: Wed May 24 11:39
Jeff (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Joshy - This day has a new meaning for me. I celebrate my birthday with great sadness and longing for my buddy...but I will not wallow in it, as you would not want that, but I take a deep breath and a long hard look at the meaning of this day and our bond of being six days apart on Earth. You are my best friend...we will ALWAYS celebrate this day together and I thank you for introducing so many loving people into my life. Aww, Yeah.

Date: Sun May 21 16:28
nicky (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Happy Birthday Joshie!! Lindsay and I went for pancakes last Thursday at the Farmer's Market to celebrate the day you arrived. I miss you so much. I am finally able to get through my workout tape without sobbing when "Euphoria" comes on. The people at the gym think I am a freak...but I don't care. I taped the first SOF record for Lindsay (she had never heard it.) I haven't seen any of your other pals but I feel like this website helps me to stay in touch somehow. I've been thinking a lot about you - it's amazing how many times in a day you pop into my mind...make me laugh, smile. I feel blessed to have so many wonderful memories of our adventures together. We're almost done mixing the record. Last night the engineer called me in to ask me about a drum loop (what it was and if I wanted it in the mix?) It was you... and one of your funky little loops you recorded for me. I told him to keep it in the mix. It's funny how I forgot all about those loops once we tracked drums. Now they're like little pieces of you that I can't let go of. Thank you for being all over the place. Love to all of Josh's family, and other friends. Peace and be well. Nicky

Date: Sat May 20 22:03
Jeff (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Joshy -- I played baseball with my nephew Alex and his friend Aaron...both 9 years old, both like us...playing baseball and making each other laugh about EVERYTHING. I looked at them and thought...if they are as lucky as we were to be best friends for YEARS on top of YEARS, they will have a great gift ahead of them. I'm going to BRUCE on Monday, one of our last outings, you and I, remember...Raina reminded me that you called her from the show and said you knew it was time to get a band...You are so loved..so loved...I'm off to hear Colin sing, "Dear J." just for you. I miss you...Happy Belated Birthday (just like old times when you were away and we couldn't reach each other.) Oh, The other day, Pete told me about our marathon phone calls when the band would go out for drinks and come back three hours later to find you and me gabbin' away like the friends we will ALWAYS be. I lo

    Collin (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Josh, it's feels like so long since you've been gone... still enriching and making the people I care about smile. I share you with everyone I can. A few days ago, working in my local library, I came across the book that you wrote when you were seventeen, in 1987. About the Author: "Josh has two strong interests: travelling and learning about life in other societies, and music - he writes songs, plays guitar and has a band." Simply put, no? All my love and respect,

Date: Tue Jun 6 13:49
Lisa (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I know I am way behind the times but I just heard the sad news about Josh. Living up in Canada, I regret that I never had the chance to see him play but his spirit will live on in the music he created. For all of you who were fortunate enough to know him and love him, I am deeply sorry. He will be missed.

Date: Tue May 30 22:20
Barry C. Schneider (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I remember Josh as a 21 yr.old kid who came to L.A. and joined our band "Francis X & the Bushman" That's where he met Mike Ward - He was the coolest kid ,bright eyes and all.... His music was ,let's say more conventional than ours but he had such a spark that we just loved his sound......... Healways asked me to show him drumbeats too;He loved the drums- He always called me his "Jewish Brother". When I think of Josh Clayton-Felt I think of music in it's purest form and that's a great thought ! God Bless you Josh ....may your chords rise in heaven ...and above !!!! PEACE. ...your bro, Barry Schneider

Date: Thu May 18 17:28
Kristen (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Happy Birthday, Josh. I miss you terribly. Love, Kristen

Date: Thu May 18 17:18
crys (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    what a beautiful day...happy birthday, josh!

Date: Thu May 18 16:12
Lindsay Lipton (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Hello. I went to Dupar's at the Farmers Market this morning to have pancakes with another friend of Joshs to celebrate his birthday. We smiled and teared. He is so special and has always been my angel. I love you Josh and miss you so terribly. I look at all the phone numbers I have for you and crave to call them all. Happy birthday love. You are always with me and I feel and can see you brightening up the skies.

Date: Thu May 18 15:26
Julie ():
    Happy Birthday, Josh. We ate pancakes this morning and thought of you...

Date: Fri May 19 16:53
Matt Robinson (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    It was with great sadness that I read of the passing of Josh today. I dug through some music and was listening to some of my favorite college era bands yesterday, and of course had to include one of my favorites, School of Fish. I had purchased Josh's first solo effort after its release, but regrettably didn't keep up with his career. After reexperiencing the magic of Josh's songwriting/performing ability, I decided to update myself on his latest activities and came across the notice that he had passed away in January. The news really affected me, and I began to think back about the good times associated with his music. I am fortunate that I had a chance to meet Josh and Michael from School of Fish back in '93 when they were touring for Paul Westerberg, and they were truly class acts. I was especially struck at how sincere and down to earth Josh was...although he had prodigious talent, he still made time to relate to the fans on a personal level. As a direct result of Josh's attitude towards his fans, I left that concert feeling much better about the recording industry, as I have seen first hand what it is capable of doing to a person. Josh was a brilliant performer, a gentleman, and was obviously loved by many fans as well as his family. As I close, I can feel myself misting up...so I will just simply say you will be deeply missed buddy...thanks for the memories and the music that will live on... Matt Robinson Charlotte, NC

Date: Thu May 18 20:08
Marilyn Felt (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Reading the postings of the last two weeks, I noticed that one writer questioned whether a posting that suggested donations to Josh's high school for a music practice room was supported by Josh's family. First, I want to thank the writer for keeping the family's wishes in mind. Second, I want to say that the school did in fact, make sure that the request was something the family would support before posting it, and that it is a wonderful school. Today was Josh's birthday. All of you, who joined with us at our house, and at your own pancake celebrations, and in your hearts, make it clear in so many ways that Josh's spirit is alive. Love always, Marilyn Josh's Mom

Date: Thu May 18 15:07
Renee Stahl (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    bon anniversaire-----happy anniversay of the day you were born. today we all celebrate your life. I miss you my friend. love Nay Nay.

Date: Thu May 18 13:21
Paul Becker (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Happy Birthday Josh.

Date: Thu May 18 13:14
Erika Schwartz (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I heard a song that reminded me of Josh this morning, and I felt an urge to visit the site again, and read the beautiful things people have written since I was last here. How amazing to find that today is Josh's birthday, and there are people sitting down right now 3000 miles away to remember him. I now fully believe that Josh's spirit is very present and that it was his nudge that made me come here and be a part of the people refecting on thier love and memeories of him. Thanks again, Josh, and Happy, Happy Birthday.

Date: Thu May 18 12:30
HEATHER HENNESSEY (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH- HOW IRONIC THAT YOUR B DAY IS THE SAME WEEK AS MOTHERS DAY. SINCE YOU AND MY MOM BOTH LEFT THE SAME WEEK I'M SURE THAT YOUR BOTH IN A GREAT PLACE. I MISS YOU MY FRIEND. TELL MY MOM AND DAD HELLO AND THAT I MISS THEM TOO AND THAT I'M OK. OR AS WELL AS I CAN BE LOVE HEATHER

Date: Thu May 18 10:41
Doug LaFave (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Tried to put on any of the CDs today and still can't, although I really wanted to. Finally decided maybe it would be therapeutic to post something here. I met Josh several times at various shows in San Diego. One with SOF outside at UCSD and a solo performance at 4th & B stand out as favorite performance memories. That and listening to him yakking away onstage between songs the different times I saw him, with SOF and then later alone, always reminded me that the journey counts the most. Josh was always upbeat, and always headed somewhere he chose to be going. I admired that immensely. I'm a couple of years older than Josh and his spirit was always a gentle checkpoint for me - was I doing what I wanted to be doing? Was I paying attention to the happiness surrounding me? Today I think maybe Josh had already learned what we're supposed to be learning, and that's why he's gone. Maybe his leaving occurred in order to help me with my learning. I hope the new CD is released sometime soon. I think it will help me to cry and then finally to smile about this. I know Josh wasn't a member of my family, and I know we weren't friends, but it feels like it.

Date: Thu May 18 10:30
Robert De Sousa (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I wish that I could have been at the Boston pancake party over Josh's mom's place. Had to work. Happy Birthday Josh!

Date: Thu May 18 07:39
daniella (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    the very first song i heard on the radio this morning was three strange days...a song that doesn't come on too often...and i smiled and thought..how appropriate...happy birthday josh

Date: Thu May 18 06:26
Jill (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I've visited this site often in the past months and although up until today I hadn't posted, I have read each message here. The words never failed to evoke emotion in me but I think that's only natural given the person Josh was. He was and continues to be an essential part of those who knew him and even those who didn't. From the moment I met him, it was quite apparent that he was unlike any individual I had ever encountered. Josh had this calm, collect aura that surrounded him and encompassed all those around him. He was completely at ease with himself, those around him, and the world in general. Within only minutes of knowing him, it seemed almost as if he'd been a part of my life forever. That day I knew I'd met someone special-an angle on earth. To say that day changed my life seems to be a little dramatic, more so than it should be. But in the smallest ways, it did in fact change my life. Meeting and knowing Josh changed a lot of the ways I perceived people, the way I treated people, and the way I looked at the bad and good in life. So, Happy Birthday Josh. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life. You are truly someone I will never forget.

Date: Thu May 18 05:43
John J. Clayton (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Happy Birthday, Josh. I love you. Dad.

Date: Thu May 18 04:07
Michelle (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Happy Birthday Josh. We miss you.

Date: Mon May 15 11:14
Corrin Roskos (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I'm horrified. I had no idea and to find this out while trying to surf around for an update on one of my favorite performers is truly disturbing. I am so sorry for the loss that his friends and the music community now must face. Josh, please accept my humble thanks for all you have given me.

Date: Mon May 15 07:52
Seamus Buckley (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Just to add to what my sister, Linda said a few messages ago, I didn't know Josh well but I vividly remember meeting him a few years ago. It was in the Opera House, Cork, Ireland at a show. At the time I knew nothing about him as he knew little to nothing about me but I never met anyone to be so unassuming despite his obvious talent. Similarly he was so welcoming, warm and geniunely interested in what I had to say. Despite me knowing, he had a strange effect on me as I have met so few (if any) people like that. This rarity has started my attempt to be a better person as Josh had a personality I would love to have. One can only assume that due to Josh's unique personna, he has gone to a beautiful place, a place where he truly deserves. Thanks for those insightful moments I had the good fortune to know you for.

Date: Sun May 14 09:44
Damian sleger (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I didnt personally know Josh. I happened to get tickets to a Tori Amos concert a couple of years ago. I was told that there was NO opening act. Suddenly this little guy with guitar comes out. Im thinking to myself "gotta be a roadie". All the sudden this guy fires up his guitar and starts ROCKING hard! I would have to say that I enjoyed Josh's performance even more than Tori. His voice captured my imagination immediately. I wasnt aware of Josh's death, and am sorry to hear about it. He had great talent and charisma. I'd like to tell his family that I feel sorry for thier loss. I know what its like to lose a very special person.

Date: Fri May 12 14:43
Linda (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I was deeply shocked and saddened to hear of Josh's death last week. I was deeply shocked and saddened to hear, last week, of Josh's death. I met Josh, here in Ireland, about four years ago, while he was staying in my town, Kinsale, writing.My sister Irene and I became good friends with him, and ever since, we would keep in contact, sending each other compilation tapes, letters, calling, etc. While working in San Francisco last summer, I had the great fortune to be able to visit Josh in L.A. While I only stayed for about 5 days, I can honestly say they were the best of my life. I went to see him play in Largo and was so delighted to see him again. We would listen to the sounds of the crickets at night, and he would make me pancakes in the morning! He asked me to sing some backing vocals on some songs, mostly on Dragonfly, I don't know if he ever used them, but we had great fun recording. I had been trying to get in contact with him for ages, but I never thought that this was the reason his phone number was not in use. Josh truly was an amazing person,he will always be in my heart, and it is very moving to read these tributes to him. I last saw him in September 99, when he appeared to be in great form, recording enthusiastically, and planning to come and visit us in Ireland again. I still cannot believe he is gone, but I know that he will be in our thoughts,, and that we are lucky to have known and loved such a beautiful person.

Date: Thu May 11 19:21
eric reed (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    PANCAKES!!! JOSH!!! MUSIC!!! FRIENDS!!! I am headed to the farmer's market this saturday, may 13th at 10 am for pancakes and rememberance of josh for his upcoming bday. I'll bring a few friends, and I'll be meeting some new friends as well. please come if you would like to share the joshness. we'll have tunes (it's rumored that we'll have a copy of spirit touches ground to listen to), and tons o' pancakes! bring a smile and an appetite. it's on fairfax and 3rd, just south of the largo in LA. if you don't know how to get there, please email me and I'll give you really bad directions! hope to see you there!

Date: Wed May 10 08:57
Michelle (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    I've finally accepted Josh's death and like many others, I wanted to know how to keep his spirit alive. The recent posting suggesting donations to a school Josh attended seems well-intentioned but it does not appear to be from his family. I note that a relevant excerpt from the portion of this website entitled "What You Can Do" IS endorsed by his family: "There was a Native American Indian group that Josh was very involved with called Descendants of the Earth. Josh spent lots of time with them and [Josh cared enough that he himself] played many benefits for them to raise money for their causes." Their address: Descendants of the Earth P.O. Box 301 Ventura, CA 93002

Date: Sat May 6 08:22
Frank Licari (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    What a sad day, indeed. Unfortunately, I didn't hear about the news until just today. Josh's name came up as I was e-mailing a former band member of his and friend of mine from Boston, Jamie Edwards. I was asking him where Josh was these days. The last I had heard he had went back out to L.A. I was fortunate enough to see Josh play 3 times and meet him in person. Actually, got to sit down with him on a few occassions and share a laugh and converse about our lives as performers. My friend, Jamie, turned me on to Josh's music and I couldn't stop going to see him perform while he was here in Boston. I was privileged enough to have him come and see me perform in my show as well (Blue Man Group). He was an amazing talent and an amazing human being who just lit up the room. I remember telling all of my friends at the theatre to "go see this guy because you can't help but love him and his music." He was very inspirational to me in those few times that I got to see him and speak with him. He had an inner life and energy that was contageous to everyone around him. You could see the people in the room just be infected by his vibe and start to smile and sway with the music. And of course, this continued after the show as well when he spoke to people. He brought a joy to all the fans and friends that he spoke to and for that matter, his band mates. Seeing my friend play with him, I could see all the fun those guys were having up on that stage. It was like watching them sitting around in their living room playing for a few friends rather than in a bar playing a "gig". I wish that I could have gotten to know him better than I did. However, the little of him that I was exposed to was enough to leave a lasting mark of a person with immeasurable talent and an amazing spirit. "ride on" Josh.

Date: Fri May 5 16:56
Sue Rivera (a friend from CSW and Brown U.) (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    Several of us who were close to Josh in high school have discussed ways in which to create a lasting tribute to him. Toward this end, we have asked the CSW Development Office to establish a fund in his name. The goal of the fund is to raise enough money so that a music practice room in the new performing arts center may be supplied with new equipment and dedicated in his name. We believe that Josh would have been pleased to know that, in his memory, other students will be given the opportunity and the resources to develop their musical talents. We hope you will consider contributing to this fundraising effort not only to respect Josh's memory, but also to help other students to achieve what Josh had achieved in his short life. Contributions to the Josh Clayton-Felt Memorial Fund may be sent to the Development Office, The Cambridge School of Weston, Georgian Road, Weston, MA 02493.

Date: Mon May 1 02:49
eric reed (This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.):
    does anyone know anything about the supposed pancake fest happening in LA?